Soo many ideas, so little time...
That's what I keep telling myself through my insomnia fueled evenings. I've made some jewelry, painted a bit, even started writing again. The weather here is so bipolar that it's messing with my moods. I am happier when it's sunny. I'm not made for freezing cold weather.
Thankfully my youtube app on my ipad has kept me occupied. Documentaries on Elizabeth I, Mary I, and episodes of Supersizers have kept me amused while I have been hiding under my blanket for warmth. It's nice to have an escape sometimes. I've read The Mortal Instruments series (except for the recent addition) and The Infernal Devices by Cassandra Clare. Yes they are young adult, but I enjoy them never the less. I'm also in the middle of On This Day in Tudor History by Claire Ridgway. It's fascinating.
Tomorrow would be my mother's 56th birthday. Last year, she was in the nursing home. She couldn't eat much. I made her a bracelet with an orange butterfly on it. (Orange was her favorite color.) I felt bad that she wasn't able to wear it, but I put it in her jewelry box so she could wear it when she eventually came home.
I'm unsure what to feel; I'm sad yet somewhat at peace. I know wherever she is, she's happy. She is no longer in pain. Although I know she wanted to see all of her grandkids grow up. I will honor her in someway. She always made sure that we never forgot her birthday. I'll make empanadillas for her (or empanadas. I always called them the former growing up). I promised her I would make her some when she would be able to eat normally again. She liked when I cooked for her.
I was hoping to finish school this semester, but I have to put it off until summer and fall semester. Textbook prices are ridiculous and by the time I could afford them, I would be so behind. It was a gut wrenching decision, but I was not going to put my house or my kids in jeopardy for textbooks. I will finish my education. I owe it to myself to accomplish that.
Hopefully I can write happier things soon. I have all kinds of things I want to write about. It will just take some patience to put all my ideas into a cohesive path. And make more jewelry. When I feel that it's good enough, I might even start selling it. :)
